It Has Been 3 Days...

I have been fasting for 3days...Not hungry at all...

Guess today is the 5th day both of you been together...Congrats...^-^

Some were asking me the reason of contacting with the girl...

Don't know...Because she is my friend?

The only way to face the problem is face them...My hand full with cuts...

That's how I can wake up from my dream...Even my lap had that...

Everywhere is full with YOU and MY shadow...

Bus...Working place...Shopping malls...Hometown...Genting...Even my home...

Really cannot find a place to hide myself...Cannot stop thinking about you...

No matters what I did...You won't sympathy me and come back to me...

I'm not stupid ! I know everything !

It's just I don't know how to face it...The girl is prettier...better...

She's got everything better than me...You finally get what you want...

My friends keep telling me to forget about you...I deserved better...

So what?! I love you...That's something that couldn't change now...

I read back my previous post...

Noticed that actually I wrote everything is about you...

And I saw that I knew you've already getting far from me...I see that !

It's just I don't know she's the one...

Both of you dare not to reply my message...? Not dare to face me?

She is my friend...I couldn't hate her much...That's what in my mind...

He was my most precious man...Me couldn't hate him much either...

Cause he is still in my mind...The one who do everything for me...

The way he smile cause of me...The way he sad n cry for me...

Somehow a small thing I did he will be so happy...

At this moment...That's still too much within my heart...

Still that word...I'm too naive to believe that he is the one for me...

I really thought he would be my first man and last man...
Eventually I'm still waiting for him to come back...It's impossible I know...

How could he...? Just change without any sign...

Don't he know he is hurting me so hard? Or is it me?

Should not open my mouth to ask at first?

Perhaps just pretending will make me feel better...At least he still is mine...

I can pretend nothing happen before...That he is still mine...

Cannot let him go...Put him down from my mind now...

KERVENNE WONG ! YOU ARE TOO WEAK !

Can you imagine that I was talking to myself for the whole day?

Two voices was arguing in my brain...Everyone was looking at me...

My bloody tears...Just cannot stop dropping...

That's why I cannot stop doing my work...To prevent from thinking about him...

Too hard...Everything just come at a time too fast...

His heart flew to another girl when I'm in his warm arm...

No wonder I felt everything is not what it should be anymore...

Should I congrats you for letting me go so easy?

So that you no need to suffer like me...The ringtone I put for you...

Listen to it...That's the song I sang whenever I lose you...

I didn't lost to the girl...I lost to myself...I love you too blindly...

All I want to hear is not apology...Is to tell me why...

Why you can lie to me? I asked you whether will you leave me...

What you answered? I won't...That bloody message is still in my phone...

I'm not cruel enough to press the "Delete" button...

Revenge couldn't be taken when my heart is still filled with him...

Although he is not the 1 who be with me that time...

Now I remembered ! I dreamed about this scene before !

This post I was typing...Everything goes so harsh...

The dream that I was crying not to let this happen...You were waiting for my word...

To say leave...leaving me...Crying alone in the middle of the rain again...

Why you still want to care me about the rain that time?

You made a sweet dream to me...And you destroy it...

How nice is that...No tears...No sadness...

There's only laughter...Happiness...Why would you bring this away?

It just happen ! In front of my eyes? How you want me to face myself?

My brain and my heart is arguing...asked me to leave you...

What to do? Nobody can answer me...

10months with you...I've to use a year to forget everything to laugh back my past...

How foolish ! Cry cannot cure anything I know...
I want to talk to nobody...A shoulder to cry on perhaps?

Someone I rely on...Don't talk to me...I only pretend to be happy...

Not happy at all...Why someone could just bring you away so easily?

My heart is too soft...You owe me too much...

You this damn thief ! Stole my heart away and tear it into pieces...

Once in my mind...Maybe if I die already you will cry for me? Come and visit me?

Or you will just forget this bitch? Why would this happen onto me?

Since the day I born...I give nothing but trouble to everyone...

That's why if someone really does walk into my heart...I will be very precious...

Treat him/her better than myself...9months ago I've got one...

Half a year to confirm our love...I did everything to prevent this love from decaying...

End up I'm still the loser...

I kept everything you gave me into the deepest in my heart...

The picture we took...Things we owned together...

OUR LOVED...I still love you...Very much...

It's just that you won't give a damn anymore though...

Really tired...Tired to fight and suffer already...

My mind is drowning...Why both of you can still so happy?

Won't you feel guilty? If I were you...I will feel guilty...

For all I did to you...And yet betraying me...How nice Dude...

You gave me hope for being together with you again...

And you smashed it into pieces...You are the Liar ! Not me !

I lie cause you don't even dare to talk to me...

So I used other way to find you...I wanted to know the fact...

Finally I knew it...My heart no longer confusing...

It's just I cannot let you down...

Both of you is someone I really precious...1 is my good friend...1 is my boyfriend...

Oops Sorry...It's EX-boyfriend...

Still that word...LOVE is fragile...Go ahead if you really love !

If not...I will still hope you happy...Because those won't last long...

By The Way...Game is not over yet my dear...It's just another episode...xD