Fucking Frustrated...

I'm here to say "Thank You" to my dearest daddy...

He is so damn Crazy that he come to find me at the midnight 4am...

When I know it I was like What The Fuck?

But I still go down and meet him...We went ShiSha together...

Seriously saying he was so much different since my last saw of him...

What a drastic change to me...He do so much stupid things to make me happy...

And my mind is so damn complicating...I was about to forget him...

Cover my love with all my furious...And hatred...

Slept at almost 8am and shoo him out of my house...Seems so bad...=\

After that I dreamed about HIM again...

His car drove towards me and he's coming down from the car...

Although he didn't face me...I can recognize his back...

Someone come out of the car and pass me the money and the phone...

Everything he owed me...He returned to me at once...

Then...He gone into the car again and I saw the girl was beside him too...

Out of my expectation...I didn't even wanted to call his name...

Or even cry...He left me alone under the cloudy sky...A shadow appears...

Perhaps this dreams is telling me to let go of him...

Returning those stuff to me...Only left memories within us...

Just smile were do right? When I woke up...

The first thing I do is on the computer...To do what I suppose to do...

Stupid me...Just opened the picture that both of them took together last times...

My heart is just a shock...Nothing much already...

1 is my good friend...1 is my boy friend...

Seriously...I didn't expect both of you to treat me like that...

Too trust on you? I know I'm naive enough...

Curse you? What will I gain? Still the way I miss you right?

Please don't expect me to forget you in a click of finger...

By the way...You are the one and only in my life will call HONEY...

It's just that I knew...You have another girl to sub my place already...

Fuck Love ! I just couldn't simply accept someone to come and go so easily...

ps :

Ref...I knew your heart...Sorry to treat you like that...

I know how sad to see the one you love comes and goes again and again...

But you should understand I was trying to decrease your love...

The time haven't come yet...He is still in my heart...

No matter how times flies...He will never be forgotten...The 1 I thought...

LOVE is a bloody thing that make your life suffer and sweet...

Don't fall into this trap...Or you will end up like me...

Just find your own happiness...

Someone will treasure you like the way you treat me...

Give a chance to her and yourself...Let go yourself...